I have wanted to sit and write an update all day, although; I could not figure out exactly how to put in to words the feelings we've experienced since Friday.
Friday afternoon around 3:30 we got the news we have been waiting for TEN.LONG.WEEKS exactly...that day. We are currently in the process of redoing our boys' rooms to make room for our little princess and as I was working; the director of our agency called to tell us CARA finally approved us! My whole body was shaking and I was holding back tears as she and I quickly spoke. She told me she had a couple of little girls who she was looking at, with us in mind, and she may get back to us as soon as that night! What?! Ten long weeks of waiting and in ONE day we get approved and could potentially see her face?
I sat in a chair in our youngest son's room just worthless. I was excited, shocked and feeling a million other things! I immediately started calling John to tell him the news, and I was full on crying by the time I got him on the phone.
We were so excited and so anxious that we could potentially be hearing news so soon. We couldn't just sit at home so we got out that night to do some running around. It seems like it took forever to fall asleep that night we were both so filled with emotion!
Saturday comes and we still haven't heard any news back. John and I both are anxious - but keep reminding ourselves how HUGE of a decision this is for not just us but our agency. How major their searching affects our lives, and how we totally want them to take ALL the time in the world to review and search for our perfect little girl.
We had a close friend come over with her daughter that night for an overdue visit. I had been so tired that day from not sleeping the night before. I had tried to nap, unsuccessfully, twice that day...I was so worn out! We are all outside on our porch just talking and I notice a text at 10:27 pm...it is from Ms. Pat - the director at our agency. I can whole heartedly say - if our friend hadn't come, we'd likely have been in bed and may have missed this!
Our youngest had just woken up and come downstairs (he must have known good news was coming). I ran in the house showing John my phone saying, "It's her! This is Ms. Pat!" My hands were shaking so bad and our friend who was visiting took our son so we could await her call.
And the news she shared has made us have the biggest smiles on our face since we heard it!
"I have a little girl...her name is S...she is 16 months old" - and she gives us a quick medical run down. She tells us that this little girl looks AMAZING and is so young; she likely wouldn't be in the system long. THANK goodness we had a friend over and were awake! We are both just looking at each other over the moon and so excited to finally see her face! Mrs. Pat tells us that she is emailing us right then what she has on S and urges us to let her know as soon as possible if we'd like her to match us. She even made the comment that she could be gone from the system the following day.
We ran in the house, grabbed my laptop, and immediately opened the email. What we found, looking back at us with these huge black eyes, was our daughter. OUR daughter was right there on the computer screen in front of us.
We opened her medical report, read it, did some quick research, and knew we did not want to lose her. We called Ms. Pat about 30 minutes later to ask her to match us. She told us on the phone she could already be gone, but she'd let us know either way if the match was done/not. We hung up and sat there for the longest few minutes EVER. Then, my phone vibrates with our forever life-changing news.
What we learned was that S had JUST appeared in the system to our agency the SAME day we received our CARA approval. Ten weeks was an incredibly long time to wait...but the day our little girl appeared; we got our approval. God's timing is perfect and even though it can be frustrating; it is NEVER wrong and we truly saw this on Friday.
John and I both sat up until about 1:00 am that night. Neither one of us could sleep. We kept looking at her beautiful little face and her chubby cheeks and wishing we could just hold her TODAY.
We woke up on Sunday morning and still had our smiles. We both have looked at her face a million times today. We were so excited to share our news with our family and friends and can't WAIT until they can see her face and we can share more.
Every good and perfect gift is from above - James 1:17
We love you and are coming for you S!
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